inpromissum

It's done.

I am now the proud owner of $41,000 in loans and a brand new Lewis & Clark-compatible Dell laptop.

I have about four weeks left here and I'm profoundly sad about it. I do feel it's a) currently the only decision, and b) the right decision, but I'm still sad. I've never had so many friends in my life and I've never felt as comfortable as I do here. But I'm leaving this. The big loans and the big discomfort probably would have remained just scary enough that I would have looked in other directions had I not gotten a new job and been reminded just where it is that I might end up - forever - if I don't act. So I'm acting. I'm terrified, excited, sad, and hopeful . . . I didn't move to Seattle to leave after a year and some months, but I also didn't come with any plan for a career and now that I have one it's leading me back to Portland.

I worry that Nick and I will survive the three years and then end up one of those couples who are each so invested in their career that neither will move. He said that if I get a job that gets me on C-Span he'll move anywhere, so I guess I'll just have to set my sights high.

*failing to find closure*